saxbehavior....more then a moment, it is a dream this is for thoes who lost hope

so yeah lately I have been stressing money and my job a lot!

this guy I was madly inlove with, walked out on me.

most of you all know the "ben" drama. well its so over because...he's gone.

I miss him though. and I don't want to miss him.

I just want him to like die....BADLY!

so money has been an issue. I needed 255$ for driving school and then my partner backed out and like I was like FUCK you know adn then today, he came in and fixed it and gave me info and I START TOMORROW!

YEAH!

so thatz good news

1321 songs on my IPod..... 686 more songs to go till I reach 2007

1/4/07

So I am currently adding soem country music and weir dpoppy music that I like to my IPod...

and I hate this process...

Waiting, Loading Importing, (Labeling if the fricken songs albums and such if it is a burned mixed cd)

so yeah...lame times ten!

TODAY WAS RANDOM! I got yelled at for other people!

I hate people!

FUCK PEOPLE!

01/03/07

Wow, I can't believe this site still exists.

ha ha ha I remember totally journaling it out every single day!

well I am back because I am trying to quit myspace cold turkey. Too adicting

So today I over drew 11 dollars and I freaked out!

I was trying to eat at ci-cis and yep...ha ha ha

*QUICK RECAP OF MY LIFE*

I got a job at fun land

I got my learners

I met a guy named Joe and he turned into my best guy friend

I met a girl named Teagan and she turned into one of my best girl friends

I get used a lot and abused a lot at work and my cosmetology teacher told me I shouldn't stay there

I have a second family there so I don't want to leave.

I am getting my cosmetology license in may

I get my DRIVERS LICENSE in march...

I graduate in June... YEAH!

and I hit 1007 songs on my ipod! ...

I wanna hit 2007 before 2007 ends!




and SAM IS THREATENING ME!

♥ Ally

August 10,2006

It has really been a long time hasn't it? Well, I am offically welcoming myself back.

So you go on vacation to escape your troubles correct? Well, my entire vacation was haunted by words going to be said and sorrow waiting for me at home.

So much was going on when I left and I never got to let my gaurd down one time during vacation.

It is hard to trust people when you do let your gaurd down.

My biggest problem, is I might over think situations when they could be taken care of.

I need to work on my trust issues.

Lord I feel so small at times.

I met someone so close to me this summer I don't think I could ever meet another guy who looks after me like him. He is so nice. He is like a brother to me.

July 10, 2006

So grasp this drama. I handed my manager my marching band schedule and he was like WOW, you have to take a lot of days off...I said yeah I do. He said well this will be hard and I said I know but it is my Senior year and I want to participate in my last year of marching band. He said well thats fine but you know I have to take your promotion from you right?

My heart sank. I died. I was so upset. I worked my ass off for that position and then he takes it away as if I have done nothing!

What ever, I just can't belive it.

July 2,2006

Wow, It has been a while since I've posted anything up here. Well, So much stuff is tearing me down. I feel like shit.

I liked this guy at funland named Aubrey...(white, blonde, tall, SEXY!) And he always hugged me followed me and was all around me all the time and then I come up to the ticket booth and he was just...*A DICK!*...

Why do I even try?

I swear, life is so not worth all the stuff I have to put up with to try to keep my friends happy and yet, NO ONE makes big strides with me. I always call, I always myspace messege, I always IM first, I always hunt other people down and I am so tired of it.

Am I that bad of a person that no one can stand me?

June 13, 2006

Yesterday at work was fun. It was a lot of good times. I was a game attendent and I walked around and gave Mike, Josh adn Josh's cousin free games and free laser tag like all day. Mike Z my supervisior was suspecious. It was hillarious!

Good times with Mike Z "da supervisor!...yeah da!" Ok, near closing, I started playing this Jurassic park game and I was at the scariest lever with the T.Rex. It was the boss stage and all of the sudden Mike Z walks over and I was so scared! OMG! I didn't see him coming because I was sitting in a game. And he said "Slide over!" And I was like "Huh?" he said again "Slide over!" So I did and we played then he left and went to a game beside me and raced once and then yelled "Alyson, get over here!" and I coined up the game beside him and we raced 3 times.

It was fun! He is like a brother to me. A cool big brother. Then, he started telling me about Summer. This chick we work with that has a huge crush on him and she is like 16. He is 23!!! And all she says is how shes going to have sex with him and he isn't leading her on at all. He told her point blank..."Nothing is ever going to happen between us Summer". I am sorry but I came to my sences...why can't she? I like him for a VERY SHORT TIME! It is a phase we all go threw. But...negative.

Alrighty...well thats the news....OVER AND OUT!

June 11,2006

A very eventful weekend. Friday, I had a guest that was so mean, rude, sarcastic, and jerkish that I cried and walked out of the ticket booth.

I called a manager and a supervisior to the ticket booth...finished the jerk and Paul and John walk in, I storm out crying. Paul (my manager) chases after me and says "please come to the conference room) I talk to him and I am so upset, I am shaking and crying and breathing weird. And I couldn't say ANYTHING to that guest. I had to let him abuse me. So Paul let me lay low for a while. He put me in the safe room with my safe room mom Jenny and we talked and then Manager Tony Tellarico comes in and sat beside me. He tryed to bribe me with tokens and candy and such to stay. I hate him. He had no sympanthy for me at all. I never cry unless somthing kills me inside. I am always happy. And he totally wrote me off like it was proper for him to do that to me.

I absolutly hated him then.

So saturday morning comes and I go into work...talk to Samantha (this 30 year old black chick that rocks at life) and then I go up to the party office and talk to Teagan. I was gone like 20 minutes adn then....I come back down and Samantha got arrested! She was gone by the time I got down there! It was crazy as heck!

So me and this new supervisior (Tracey) are running around trying to figure out what she got arrested for. And she got arrested for somthing BAD! Not, death, killing bad. But for somthing I cannot say.

Then sunday = lame. But not tonight. I got off and partied with my people! It rocked mucho.

Well, I hafta work tomorow so see you kids lata!

June 8,2006

So my stomach is in knotts as I wait for the jazz band times to perform.

A lot has happened today and I am just so not wanting to be here.

I have a solo.

I am scared

The end!

June 6, 2006

OH KIDDIES! MORE NEWS ON THIS SIX SIX SIX....I AM GOING BLONDE AGAIN TODAY....NOT TOOO BLONDE....JUST THE TOP. OHHHH YEAH! AND I AM SO EXCITED FOR BEING A LEMON HEAD!

SO SMILE JASPER, AND FREE THE JUICE
I WANT MY HAIR BLONDER THEN MIGHTY BRUCE.

OK....YEAH THAT WAS LAME. PLUS.....!!!!!!......SINCE MY HAIR STRAIGHTNER MET IT'S DESTRUCTION....I THINK A NEW ONE IS IN ORDER! :]

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